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Updated: Oct 29, 2018



This past year I was published in my first book, Empowered Sexy and Free.


This book was a group collaboration between me and 7 other women entrepreneurs. It was a beautiful thing to be a part of.


I wrote a story about a time in my life when I went to jail.


Yes, me. Jail.

My whole life, I’ve wanted to be a writer. My mother says that I started writing her books before I could even ride a bike.


But then jail happened when I was in college and a series of unfortunate events that inevitably led to 10 solid years of writer’s block.


You’ll have to read about it in the book (which is an Amazon Best Seller by the way).


Over the past 10 years, I have sat down repeatedly to write and have started countless books only to stop, stuck and unmoving.


It was perfect when this opportunity for collaboration came around because it offered me the support and accountability that I needed to break through my trauma and actually become a published author.


Working with these women, I developed a sisterhood unlike any other. We bonded, we shared, we cried and we laughed together. Our energies combined and the support of the other women helped my business soar to new heights.


When I finally sat down to write the chapter, the words flew out.


AND so did the pain.

I ended up sitting down over two afternoons to get my first draft out and in that experience, all the pain that I had gone through 10 years ago resurfaced and I got to re-live the energy of that time over again.


It was wild and intense.


My whole being lit up with anger, and shame, and insecurity, the likes of which I hadn’t experienced in awhile.


When I finally finished the draft, I was an emotional mess and ended up sobbing in a heap on the floor. I hadn’t realized until that moment how much of the pain I had suppressed and buried over the past decade.


I began to utilize the tools that I offered in the book as a way to shift the trauma response I was having. This was big stuff.


I worked every technique and a friend even came over to help support me.


That night, I woke up at 3 a.m. with excruciating stomach pain. I recognized that it was in conjunction with the energy of the past that I had unleashed.


For an hour, I lay there and became fully present with the pain in my stomach. I held my energy and awareness in my belly and stayed with it.


I wanted to throw up so badly but it wasn’t coming. I laid like this for over an hour. Finally, the release came. I ended up throwing up all over myself as I tried to make it to the toilet.


Sexy huh?


Over the next day, my body kept eliminating this past energy from my system. It wasn’t pleasant and it continued to show me just how much of the past I had kept locked up inside.


How much I hadn’t dealt with until now.


What an experience. It was a beautiful thing to learn about myself and the depth of the energy that I had bottled up for years and years.


When I was finally ready and able to deal with the trauma, it came out in an explosive manner and I ended up covered in my own shit. Literally.


This is a vulnerable share for me as was the story I wrote about in the book. I believe this story is just as relevant as the chapter I wrote as it continue to tie together the past and present with a strong degree of complexity and connectedness.


I learned that I was capable of supporting and transmuting new levels of energetic experience that I wasn’t capable of ten years ago. I learned that you can keep energy inside of you for a very long time and if you don’t deal with it, it will come out eventually. I learned that there is power in release and expression. I learned how incredibly capable I am.

I am very happy to be able to share this work and writing with you as it marks a remarkable transformation and pivotable point in my story as an entrepreneur and energy specialist.


The books contains eight stories of transformation and the tools we used to overcome adversity and struggle in our lives. My story is about the anger, depression, shame and extreme drug addiction that inevitably led me to become who I am today.


Empowered, Sexy, and Free.


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This time last year I was brokenhearted and sick. I had a lung sickness that had persisted for over a year and a half that forced me to close the doors of my healing practice so that I could focus on healing myself. My unfulfilling relationship had ended in a traumatic way and I was even asked to leave the place where I was living which I loved and adored.


Life was crumbling and it was all I could do to put one foot in front of the other.


At the time, I had to trust that something bigger was at play because SO MUCH was going “wrong”. As I look back on that time, I am able to see exactly why all that had to happen.


At the time, I was asking for greater things and had set set strong intentions for myself and my business. I was also putting conscious effort toward attracting my beloved in a super aligned relationship dynamic.


When I lost everything, I had only one thing remaining: ME. Even though I felt like a shell of myself, I was still here, still alive. I began to take steps towards regaining my power and shifting my life back into a healthy state.


I started doing the energy practices I had been teaching others for so long several times a day. I switched to non-inflammatory and vegan foods. I stopping working for several months. I did daily practices to align and attract a new and more potent partner. I moved to Mexico to sweat in the jungle for several months. I continued my work with plant medicine.


In a relatively short time, my energy came back online in a major way.


All of a sudden I was supercharged and inspired. I began to get downloads about a new collaborative business venture. I started writing my first book and I re-branded my business under the name Embodied Energy. I created and launched an online program called EmpoweredMe in 2017 which is exactly what had just happened to me.


I was Empowered and it took losing many of the things that I loved to get me there.


I returned home from Mexico and in four short months I double my income from the previous year. A few months later, I entered into a creation-ship with a beautiful metaphysical man with mutual long term future goals. How amazing is that?


And now I am launching a new business to offer intention filled, ritual based events, retreats and weddings. We will be using profits and the energies that we collect to invest in projects that create renewable resources and help people gain access to the healings and transformations that they need to live empowered lives. Read more about how awoke to this adventure in this post.


It’s so very exciting to be where I am now and look back on the struggle that was last year. All of those things occurred to help me get here. As Abraham says, “Everything is always working out for you.”


As I plan an international tantra and medicine ceremony retreat and continue, launch Ritual Wise, and continue the gratifying work of leading Tantric Touch Workshops and Energy Healing immersives, I am reminded that out of the abyss rose a phoenix.


If you are in need of healing, lean in, dig deep, and follow the calling of your heart. Do for yourself what you would do for others. You are worth it. The work is worth it.


I would love to connect to each and everyone of you as you journey and grow. You’ll find some free downloads on my site to help you along the way. If you are ready to dig deep, join one of events and stay tuned for details on a tantric immersive retreat in Mexico this June. It’s going to be amazing.


With energy and love,

Maria
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As a sensitive being you may have noticed that the different stages of the moon affect your mood, sleep, sensitivities and many other things. In many traditions around the world, the energy of the moon is used to enhance spells and rituals and enliven new projects and manifestations. The energy from the moon is so powerful that it affects the tides in every ocean on Earth, imagine the pull it must be having on the waters within each of us.


New Moon

The first stage of the lunar cycle represents opportunities, new beginnings – a stage of initiating and planning what you want to achieve in the following month. At this time, the moon is completely invisible in the night sky as it sits between the earth and the sun (with the sun shining on the side of the moon we cannot see).


It is a desirable time to set your intentions for the month as well as a time of boosted creativity. Write these ideas down, do some meditation, reflect on how you want to reshape old goals in a way that suits you in the present. What are your dreams and desires? Make them as clear as possible. You’ll be surprised in the ways the universe sends messages and opportunities to help you.


Full Moon

The energy of the moon is felt the strongest when it is full. Myths and legends throughout human history point towards strange happenings during this time – mum used to tell me this is when all the ‘crazy’s’ come out, and a friend of mine of who is a nurse agrees completely. It’s a time of abundance, where you may be able to see some psychical manifestation of the desires you laid out in the new moon.


Intense thoughts and emotions are usually associated with the full moon. A good idea would be to channel this energy into creative pursuits, or by reflecting and journaling to release any built up tension/emotion. Sexual energy is very high at this time, whilst we also tend to stay up later as our energy at night is increased.


This phase is a time to let go of anything that is not serving your higher purpose, which can be anything from toxic relationships, habits, people or jobs.

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